anyway, i'm suppossed to collect my report card today, which i so totally dread. just coming all teh way to school in our uniforms just to collect a thin blue book. whats the point? i'd rather not collect it at all. it only makes me more depressed. best of all, i don't know, for no apparent reason, i seem to have fallen ill. yar, the typical illness.

My's throat's sore.
i can't seem to swallow well.
My nose's running
my sense of smell is not at all perfect.
My chest lurches,
as i give a feeble cough.
there's this terrible urge to pop a strepsil in.
My head feels heavy,
i feel a lil' dizzy.
Don't know if i can make it,
to school later in the day.
I feel kinda feverish,
as if i'm on fire.
my limbs are sore,
probably the result of playin' too much basketball.

seriously, i feel sick. very sick. i took my temp yesterday, it was like 37.9 i don't really feeli like going to school...perhaps i'll go, not for my report card, but more for my book which i left under my desk.

souless;11:38 AM

This is hantu. As in really, I ain't dead, I'm just at Sihui's house fooling around with the com' while she watches my VCD, Princess Mononoke.
And she's saying, "He's naked! He's naked."
No, you don't want to know.
Remember to go to my blog and tag, ye' scum asses.
Kindly refer to my blog if you want to see Sihui's entry. The holidays are all very well but it's driving our gang nuts. All of us are bored out of our minds. Eugenia keeps telling me she's bored, P.C. keeps asking to go out, me, Eugenia and Sihui have been blogging and blogging and blogging and tagging and tagging and tagging. The only one I haven't seen to have heard from is Lynnette.

Y'know, on my way here, in the lift going down from my house, there was an old lady and she looked at me, with this shifty, glowering look, like when Bilibo looks at Gandalf when he asks him to leave the Ring behind, just 'cause I was dressed in a hell lotta black, a skirt that wasn't below the knee and I was two heads taller than her.
It's times like that that makes me want to smoke a hell lot of cigarettes, get a huge stupid tattoo stretching from my shoulder to my wrist.
I'd get some huge green dragon tattoo, wear wayyy too much thick eyeliner, smoke, glare and say some kooky line like, "mei kan guo mei nu ar?", just to be stupid.
All just to prove that I don't give a shit about what these people think.
'Cause to tell the truth, I don't have much respect for a lot of elderly, because they don't give me any.

Then I met Jing Yee, Yu Xin and Yong Ping on the train and I had fun talking to them. I love the three of them. They're very sweet.
In any case, check out my blog later for Sihui's blog. It's under there somewhere on the right.






Evil deeds, while I plant these evil seeds
Please release me from these deamons
- Eminem

souless;3:40 PM

haven't ya all heard of a lucky streak, when lady luck finds favour on ya? yer...these few days, i'm on an unlucky streak, seriously unlucky. very unlucky. ya won't believe what happened to me. firstly, i got my freakin swollen finger *ouch* and a srupid really bad graze on my leg. all of those was not trhat bad. well, not as bad as what happened yesterday. T_T
ok...my father had a wedding dinner yesterday, and obviously, that meant that we could stay and play longer at my cou's house, or my neighbour's house whatever you wish to call it.
ok..we played heart attack. not teh typical one using cards, but teh one using our hands. its like sicissors paper stone..arg i don't know how to explain. its just that you would most probbably end up getting both hands slapped really hard until its like you could see your veins protruding out *ewww..gross* then i was so very unlucky, to ..for no apparent reason, i slapped my bro's ahnd and stupidlly hit against his knuckle *owwwwwwwww* i got a urg, ugly green bruise on my thumb. seriously, i'm really doen on my luck.
then at round 11 plus, we were like called home. tehn i went to bathe. ok.i prepared to bathe. argg and my sis and bro had to be so kind as to save electricity, they offed the heater. *shrug* obviously, teh normal human reaction would be to go out and on the heater once more or to scream and shriek and tell em' off. well, i did the latter. they switched it on. then switched it off a sec later. *grrrrrr*
seriously, i did not know what got hold of me. i think taht i was like possessed or something like that. i kicked the toilet door. hard. very very hard. i don't know but tehn next thing i knew, my foot was through the door. *shudders* teh pieces of glass or whatever flew out. i was like. mometarilly shocked out. at a loss for words. my mind blanked out. i was like. um.. am i dreaming or what. how could i possibly broken the door. um. yeah. yer then teh next reaction from my bro and sis were like : WHA?!?!
then obviously, i weirdly angled my foot outta the door. there's this long scratch at my ankle and a few lil' scratches around. i didn't bother to check whether there were bloodstains on the glass *hah* then we got out the masking tape and whatever and treid fixing teh door back [anyway, just wanna say taht i'm really telling teh truth down here. i'm NOT lying. you can come to my house to see the door if u want. ]
anyway, we did a sloppy job of fixing the door back. it looks pretty weird now. and also, we kinda forgot to put the rubber back.*sigh*
anyway, come to think of it, i escaped largely unscathed. glass ya know. (or so i thought it was) welll it fely lke glass, it was as sharp as glass though it didnt't look like glass. dunno. but i guess i wouldn't be able to play ball today. don't feel like it anyway, much too tired.

souless;11:23 AM

yea. its the holidays. imagine. endless; well, at least a month days of nothing to look forward to 'cept for time to pass more slowly. a moth of waking up later than usual, a month long of lazing at home, a month long of trying to com plete projects and homework even though much of it is futile. a month long of staying at home. a month long of having to face the same four walls day in day out. a month long of watching VCDs, DVDs, movies...
it sounds kinda boring. well, i'd admit is did sound very enticing during the exam period. but then, well, ya' can't expect me to have the sameol' stupid dumbmindset that staying at home all day long is gonna be nice.
i kinda miss school, to think of it.
worse still, i've like left my book. the book. that book which i was gonna finish reading-under my desk! gosh. i seriously suffer from a form of memory loss. i suspect that my brain cells are being depleted at a much faster rate then they are being replenished. i need some kind of help here. is there a kind of medicine or injection taht could help my memory? i am in need of a donation of fresh brain cells, better still, brain cells from someone younger than me.
calling for brain cells here...

souless;11:24 AM

hah. we've been like consecutively going to play ball everyday. worse still, straight after my lunch. ok. a few hours after my lunch. yesterday, i went with my sis's friends felt a lil' awkward and crude there being the oldest and all. yeah, but it was pretty fun. best still, i didn't sustain any injury.
but.but.but. today. yeah, guess what, we actually went to the HDB blocks the bb court to play, hah. but there we loiek many many people.worst still, from PHS. hah. my sis and her friends even said that they looked liked gangsters and um yeah, one of em even stripped, well obviously his shirt, acting cool or whatever. i somewhat felt chatised and a lil' disgraced *laughs* yeah, then like waited for a very long time, its been like so many hours (probably since school ended till 6pm )argg. then of course we ent to horizon there. (shit i feel like this is getting very boring)

yeah, i guess today is kinda like an unlucky day fer me. first of all, the sole of my slippers were like hanging on a thin lik' thread. secondly, i dunno how or when, there was this ungainly cut on my foot. urg and it hurts like crazy..its still throbbing with poain now even as i type. also, i dunno why, the stupid ball hadta hit my finger. so hard. it was not like the mormal hits i've like kanna before. this time it was super pain lor. now my finger's like. um. red and swollen?!
seriously, i can't walk properly, i can't hold stuff properly.

anyway, i've noticed some kind of a difference between the people in basketball courts in HDB flats down there and also in the more refined places.its totally different. mark my words.
those in HDB flats are usuallt vulgar[we've met a kid, no taller than my waist i believe still in primary 1 . he was like going tmd tmd all the way, telling us, much taller and older kids than him, to go and die. i seriously believe he would make a great gangster someday.]
yeah. people there are also crude and mostly would not let you share court with them and would probably chase you off. only in very very very rare circumstances do you meet great and benovelent people who would gladly share court with you and even agree to take you on, even if its a great disadvantage to them (eg, there was this malay or indian guy with two otehr sec school guys we met. yeah, we challenged them mind you, 6 of us against 3 of them and one of them didn't even know hoe to play. yet, they agreed.)
hah. this is truly one super rare case. Most would probably tell you to scram off. also, those people there usually know how to play. i mean very well.

in teh more refined places, people are usually, um. yeah, they play with their shirts on. teh people there are easier to get along and you can just sorta jump right in . but best not to if they're playing match. yeah, but they're generally nicer. like today, we just ran right in and yar, played match, well, the three other boys is the court went to sot in the corner and let us finish our match. nice huh. you'd never get that kind of 'treatment' in HDB bb courts. believe me. oh yar. and most, i said mostly, those people playing there are usually not as good as those in teh HDB bb court. i said mostly, but of course there are always exceptions.

anyway, i'm pissed. don't ask me why.

souless;10:21 PM

yer. anyway. i failed. i failed my a maths. great news. w-e-l-l, i kinda expected i would not do that well but, i had at least expected a pass. urgg..ah well, perhaps i was destined to fail maths. maths was never my strong subject nor was it a subject i'd totally adore. in fact, i had so totally hated maths .huh-llo...what can ya expect from me. by the way, i think. i think around ahlf the class failed, i sorta think that perhaps, other classes would have more failures too. hah. i know i'm evil. i know i'm black-hearted [literally translated from hei xin]but then, i'm somewhat down-trodden now and could really do with some self-assurance bah. though i suspect i'm really like deceiving myself.
uh yeah, teh rest of my subjects, umm. lets say, it was within my expectations. but, for chem.urg, nevermind. Though i got that A1, yet, that hantu...
Bio. blank-blank
Phy. urh. haven't got back *curses*
HCL: umm. yeah this one's not good.
i don't feel like typing any longer, besides, the show's on.
ah well. quick writeup
we went on this cruise, well, the boat ride or cruise was pretty eventful, we went from clifford pier to um an island teh southern island tour yep i kinda liked the steady up-down-left-rught jolting movement of teh boat on the waves. hah
ok..yar.buh bye

souless;6:50 PM

Your element is Fire: Strong, hot tempered,
powerful, and passionate. Well now lets see,
being fire you are quite strong and powerful,
people look up to you greatly and often seek
your protection. You have the ability to gain
many friends and you are always one people can
count on to do what you say you will do. You
are extremely loyal be it friends or family
you'll stick up for them and you are never
willing to put them in a position that could
hurt them. You know what roll you play in life,
leader, and you intend to let people know it.
Not everyone is capable of leadership but you
certainly have the willpower and flare to do
it. You have quite a temper if it shows itself,
one that can often lead you into trouble. Once
your mind is made up there is no changing it
but no one said that was a bad thing.

.:-What is your true element?-:. -With Anime Pictures and detailed answers-
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souless;6:49 PM

Your Miroku! all that matters in life is who is
going to be your next boyfriend/girlfriend and
where to take him/her next. Not to worry
though, because you are bright and you do your
school work. And hey, you even have a fan club!

What Inuyasha Character are you?
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souless;6:41 PM

yep, you did not ...i repeat, you did not hear wrongly . we had the amazing race today, i mena the sec 3 express had this amazing activity called the amazing race whhich was basically about a race that was meant to be amazing, or was it an amazing that is supposed to be a race?!?! *figures* (what the heck am i talking about here?!?!) maybe perhaps a race that would amaze us, or even simpler still, an amazing race, yeah, just as its name says so.
a very very, extremely simple summary below...

Our school's amazing race,
was held at Bishan Park
That's right, the very park near AiTongPrimary,
the same ol' park near Bishan park secondary,
the familiar ol' park where as kids we once roamed.

The many memories it brings forth,
those childhood days,
those bittersweet feelings.
Pangs of longing, for time to slow down,
better stilll, wishing for the ability to turn back time

The sun was ablazed,
a breeze gently blowin',
the scent of wildflowers drifted about in the morn' air
T'was a perfect day for a race,
in fact, the weather made it even better,
an amazing day for a race,
an amazing race it would be.

In our classes, all of us lined,
decked in our house tee shirts,
camp tee, class tee
what a sight.
Red, Blue, Green ,Yellow:
the colours of the rainbow splashed evry'where.

A riddle was given
every class scranbled ta' solve it.
our brains and intellect were put to the test.
Mumbles and moans,
suggestions and not-so-smart answers were given
finally, we got the answer and were raedy to go.

*great...this is taking longer than i had expected.. arhhgggg*

Ready, on your marks, get set, GO
off we ran, mud squeching under our very own shoes,
some even splattering onto our legs.
ALL of us, had a common goal

the fourteen stations that lay ahead
many different games and activities.
to win the game, we hadta' complete the activities
an' get a piece of the puzzle
followed by a sticker and a stamp.

The n we'll have to guess,
the person on the puzzle
whether its a he or she
whether its a pudgy or slim one?
whether its a vertically challenged one,
who knows?

It;s just our job,
ta get the job done
it just takes a few hours,
of scrambling around Bishan park.
Some choose to walk,
others take the fast way out and exercise their legs.

When time is up,
evryone rushes to teh drink kiosk.
sweaty bodies sweltering under the heat,
cramped up in that kiosk.
The feel of cool liquid,
sliding down ma' throat
it feels like i'm in heaven
well, teh liquid part that is,
obviously not the environment.

uh ok...i edited the last three paras..cuz i was like in teh middle of writing it when my good ol
cousin came. Yeah ...arhgg and i can't believe that i got shocked outta my wits, well, nope...a little teeny weenny itsy bit shocked when he tapped my shoulder...argg. i ahte to admit it...yep..then, i went to eat durians..lol ah well, i feel kinda bored and _______(can't seem to find the correct word yet..) so perhaps, i shall consider changing teh music. hmm. lets see. *think* *thinking* *still thinking* *stilll keeps thinking* *still in the midst of thinking*

souless;4:35 PM

great, just great, i've been like eating and eating, stuffing myself liek crazy over the weekend, well, ya can't blame me ..ok...lemme tell ya, yesterday, yeah, we went to the the old beijing, loosly translated from Lao beijing umm. yeah, its a restaurant yep, we went there rather late, so had high tea there..whoa cheemology high tea, actually, its something liek lunch ..nothing much. umm.yeah and ya know what, a glass of apple juice ...small li' glass costs like 5 bucks..lmao and in direct contrast, teh tea costs like 1 buck per person..heh heh yeah, i stuffed myself, the onion pancakes (tastes more like cheese to me), the hot and spicy soup (yum) blah blah, and yeah, teh portions given were like ..umm.very small *laughs*
oh yeah, btw, i was watching teh jay chou life concert thingy, aha..i'm not a jay chou fan ...and i am still not one, it was just that, it was raining and we were knida like waiting fer it to stop so that we could play basketball..to bad it didn't (urgg) ok..and i've gotta admit, some songs are liek pretty nice yep and i liked his cousin's snazzy entrance in a car woo hoo!
ok..then today, umm yeah, we went to IMM to this japanese restaurant i think it was called hoishi or whatever..whoa super ex man...28 bucks per person..there were 7 of us..umm.yeah, do your calculations quick!

Me: HUH??? whoa..so much arhx...don want la.
dad: never mind, never mind...
Me: h-u-h....*doe-eyes* lets so teh yun nam chinese restaurant (yeah..yum nam...i'm not kidding, at first i thought it was like yun nam haircare. *haha*)
dad: ok lor
*runs to fifth floor*
ME *looks at menu* *shock*
me: omigosh...whoaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa nononon..better not beter not go back go back
dad: um..ok lor anything u all wish
*run back to third floor

phew...lol and yep...i also found out that we're getting more and more kinder to teh environment.laughs. like the hoshi place, it charged like 5 bucks per 100g for wastage of food. and umm. sad to say, we were kinda greedy. me ma sis and bro..umm.. we took tooo much then it was like, my bro kept drinking up the soup, saying about how much he was helping us then i was lie...-_- grrrrr...
ok..then , we went to sci centre to watch this IMAX show.the mystry of the nile or something liek that.haha pretty nice, i liked the 3-D feeling ya get laughs

ah well, and yeah,,i boyght threee new books!! fantasy books!! hahah btw, i think i'm great..i've liked finished reading 9 books of tsubasa in like 2 days only!! wahahha ok..i'll shall not crap any longer and shall go and link eugenia's new blog *groans* i sincerely hope this one is permanent...

souless;8:30 PM

seriously, i'm bored with a capital B..seriously bored like anything...more borred than the borest man on earth (i dunno if that makes sense but..nvm)

i'm bored-
to death
i wanna do something

I'm frustrated
an' disgruntled
i need ta' do something

the human mind-
even my own-i sometimes can't comprehend

before the exams, i'd rather be bored
an time passes soo fast
after exams, i'd rather have exams
an' times passes soo slow

Humanity is complexity.


Desert

Mounds of sands.
Gusts of wind.
Emptyness.
Nothingness.

Cactuses and shrubs
are all that make up thee.
Spiky lil' thorns,
dry ol' branches.
Deathly stillness hangs about.

Hopes for rain, keeps pouring out.
But storm clouds gathering won't bring relief
Just darker days with lesser hope.
Just stormier days with lightning and fog.

Sand and wind, cries of help
Tired camels trotting through.
But bound to thee, to hopelessness.
I'm sorry to say, there's no way out.

Salvation-a word so distant
probably it'll never happen
So, continue to hope.
Continue to pray,
one day i'm sure,
heaven would take pity.

yeah..i know that it is kinda weird of me to write about deserts , considering that its not really a concern for any of us...

hmm..i had the photo journalism workshop today..*sigh* sad to admit, it was knida boring , BUT, luckily, at least i wasn't in the chinese calligraphy or the dance..cuz i heard they teach em' some ballet steps there *shudders...* (i relieving some bad memories here...)

souless;4:25 PM

yer..yesterday was friday the 13th...well, nothing much happened to me i must say..*sigh*

I feel like playin' ro
but i can't seem to bother

i feel like clickin' on the icon
but i can't semmta move my hand

i feel like goin ta sleep,
but i ain't feeli like movin' my bod'

i feel like gettin a drink,]
but i can't seem ta move ma' legs

what's wrong with me...
i'm too tired
i'm too lazy
i'm too bored..


well, yep i'm gonna help my sis out with her art thingy...drawing like heaven and hell and a little a lamb. i'm just gonna do the hell part..i'm teh sadistic type an' kinda have some teeny weeny experiences in experimenting with teh hellish portion..o yeah.i think teh death poem really suits her theme too..well..buh-bye

souless;11:25 AM

Feelings
i'm feelin' tired
a lil' exhausted

i'm feelin' bored
a lil' nostalgic

i'm feelin' crappy
a lil' grumpy

i'm feelin' sadistic,
a lil' not-like-myself

i'm feelin' all the feelings
An' they're all in a jumbled-up-heap

i can't control em'
they're runnin' wild

i can't get hold of ma'self
i'm slippin' away

i going too fast,
every thin's a blur

i can't seem ta' stop
my brakes don't work

its all gonna end
i can feel ma'self going

going..going...
i'm leavin this place

i'm leavin this moment
i'm gone...

um..yeah i know this one a lil on the weird side, perhaps i think noone will liek understand what i'mwriting cuz i was like just created this just..i mean..like when i started typing, the words liek just flowed up..its a rather shabbily done thingy, in like two minutes so..ah well, don't mind


Fat Tad

He's Tad
eatin' made im' fat

Tons of ice-cream
Lotsa fries
He was never once trim

The lard he consumes,
"Its healthy," he presumes.

this vertically challenged lad,
with humongous lumps of fats
Fats stored as reserves,
i'll bet he'd never starve.

w-e-l-l, no offence to ppl named tad out there..

ok..yeah, i forgotten to bring my corrections to sch..ang arrggg just thinking of it makes me fume...i hadta go home to get it..well, luckilly, oishan and lynnette were so kind to escort me home, well, its a pity oishan left her bag at my house,*laughs* i'll give it to her on mon...

souless;4:16 PM

haha...FREE from mid year exams..well, technically speaking,there's still CMe tomorrow, but then, um..yeah..i dunno where's my book, anyway, i'm rather confident i'll pass..*sheepish look

chemistry books, lyin' on ma' table,
chemistry notes, scattered on the floor
No wanna read ma' book
no wanna read ma' notes
i juz wanna fall in bed
to rest my tired eyes.

i wuz feelin' a lil' bored,
so i took out ma' pen
an wrote a lil' poem:

the stress, the pressure.
its not really a pleasure.

the papers, the tests,
its seriously like a pest.

the homework and worksheets,
its piling up like shit/sleet

its gonna be a tough time,
its no easy feat.

yep..that's about it..an' i;m like really really reeaally happy, well, at least some of the words rhyme properly, althought i didn't really like the shit part cuz i think its a lil' too crude fer ma' liking. ah. its kinda serene and peaceful now..the way it was always meant to be.


-i'm surprised i'm not dead yet T_T
o ya..i've become a panda in a week

souless;11:33 AM